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How has your drinking been during these last uncertain months of Lockdown?

Has it increased? And are you comfortable with that increase?

Do you feel confident that, as your new normal emerges, you will be able to step away from your evening relaxing/calming (oh that it were!) Wine O’clock routine, or do you have an nagging suspicion that something has settled within you, some feeling of ‘need’ that will be harder to shift?

And how does that nagging suspicion show up to you?

Many of my clients talk about their ‘Wine Witch’. Do you? Do you talk about a dreaded, destructive someone who comes zooming in on a broomstick enticing you back to the bottle, after you have promised yourself you are not going there, or not today anyway.

And what does your Wine Witch say to you? Maybe words of entrapment along the lines of;

  • “Have just the one”
  • “You deserve it”
  • “You’ve had a long day, why not start tomorrow”
  • “Don’t deprive yourself of something you love”
  • “You’ll be ok this time, this time you can stop at one”
  • “It’s not that bad”

And all the rest. Recognize her now?

And as she casts her alcohol spell, you give in. You drink, you feel rubbish, weak a failure, and blame your Wine Witch…..well you have to blame someone don’t you? I mean you don’t deliberately want to feel terrible, physically and emotionally, when you see the faces of shattered trust of your loved ones the next day.

And so you focus on getting rid of this mad, unkind, destructive demon who goads you into drinking, but here’s the truth.

Your Wine Witch is not your enemy, she is not outside you, she doesn’t come unbidden, out of nowhere or because of any clock time.

Instead, she comes when she is needed, when you are in need.

She comes to comfort you, to support you, to offer you the love and connection you are lacking in the moment, that you may have some sense that you are missing, but have lost the sight of how to deliver back what you need, and so you turn to alcohol. That is the truth.

You are not in ‘parts’, so there is no part of you that wants to hurt you.

There is confusion about how to offer and deliver you what you need, but no malignant part of you that wants you to fail, that wants to destroy your health, happiness, peace, calm or love of yourself or others.

Your are designed to live in awareness and connectedness of who you are, what you need and how to deliver it. That is called your instinct.

However, life situations and learning’s from others, in this instance around alcohol, have taught you to believe, that alcohol is the problem. That alcohol is a battle you can never win, that you have to abstain for ever. That changing the way you drink means giving up for life, that changing the way you drink will be hard and painful and worth it, but still a battle that will need constant supervision to stop you going back. And what you believe, you see, feel and you hear, all around you.

Here’s another truth. When you go into battle over alcohol, ‘To Drink, or Not To Drink’, you are going into conflict with yourself around your beliefs about alcohol, not with alcohol.

You are duking it out with your Conscious Mind, your learned ‘knowing’, pitted against your Unconscious Mind, you learned ‘feeling’.

Now you think your Conscious ‘knowing’ would win, but against your Unconscious ‘feeling’, (that has no language, just feels, so doesn’t even know what alcohol is), it never, ever stands a chance.

And the more you Conscious knowing berates you for drinking, the more your hurt Unconscious sends up alcohol as the method of comfort and support.

The worse you think, the worse you feel, the more you drink, to comfort yourself.

Your Conscious Mind is the voice that tells you “DON’T!”. “Don’t be so weak, what’s wrong with you, you’re useless, you know this will end badly” and that voice is stern, unkind, lecturing and makes you feel bad – and this is often referred to as the Angel…..strangely, as this Angel can be pretty dammed abusive.

And in response to the hurt your Conscious Mind inflicts on you, to comfort and support you, Unconscious Mind, your ‘Wine Witch’ kicks in.

Softer and kinder in tone, having no idea what alcohol is, or what it does to you, she is determined to hold you, to protect you. and in her lack of knowing what alcohol is and does to you, she feels you are trying to deny yourself comfort when you need it most.

Your Unconscious Mind is your super loving, super confused, super power, who will do anything and everything in her power to offer you love, and that is who your Wine Witch is.

Your Wine Witch is, (in intention), your deaf, mute, unknowing, only ‘feeling’, Guardian Angel, who exists only in response to your needing comfort from ‘bad’ feelings. But because the reality (so very different from her intention behind it), is that her method of comfort harms you more, you have grown to fear and hate her arrival.

Imagine now if instead of criticizing yourself when your alcohol thoughts drift in, you were to pause, take a couple of long, slow deep breathes, and to ask yourself with gentle love, “What am I looking for right now?” “What do I need to do for me?” and then waited and listened.

The true answer of what you are looking for, would appear from within you, your need for rest, comfort, communication, quiet, nourishment, physically, emotionally or both. Whatever it is you are lacking in that moment when your old alcohol thinking came up, which you then delivered.

What do you think would happen then? Well, you reconnect with YOU.

You re-connect with who you are and what you need, and in that place of self-awareness, self-compassion, self-care your step back in to self, yourself.

You step back into trust and communication with you. That is the you that has no ‘need’, no cravings, no feelings of anxiety or deprivation around alcohol, because alcohol was never what you were looking for. You were looking for what you were lacking, and you were lacking the love and understanding of YOU.

When you have that re-connection, you have the peace, balance and harmony in life you were designed to live in, to be, and in that place, all your alcohol confusion and your loving Wine Witch simply drifts away, allowing your drinking to change naturally and effortlessly.

Be kind and gentle with yourself

Sonia

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Changing your drinking is not hard, and the life your drinking has given you is. And changing your drinking doesn’t have to mean ‘never again’, it simply has to be that are free to choose when you drink, not to feel you have no choice.

But you only stay stuck for as long as you choose to. You may have tried many times to stop and instead found yourself on the nightmare hamster wheel of your Stop/Start cycle instead, and that is because you have tried the same formula of not picking up the glass and hoping everything else will fall into place. Sadly, you know this doesn’t work, and knowing that, and knowing that you long to be free of your alcohol stress, anxiety and pain, you have to do something else.

I offer that something else. I created the unique 6 week, 1-2-1 RAPID ALCOHOL RECOVERY METHOD coaching process, based on my own sudden, effortless freedom from 28 years of out of control drinking.

It is not a freedom that comes with the caveats of control or relying on willpower, it is the freedom of choice and peace, and if you have understood this blog, if my thinking resonates with you, it the freedom that is on offer to you too.

There will never be a time that is more right for change your drinking than today, because you only have today to decide if you want to end your depressing stop/start cycles, you fear, your anxiety and you hangovers.

If you choose today, you have started your journey to effortless freedom. If you choose tomorrow, you have lost another joyful day. Which do you choose? Here’s the RAPID ALCOHOL RECOVERY METHOD link again in case you missed it earlier.

I know the ONLY hard part of changing the way you drink is reaching out, so don’t let that stand in your way. I offer a complimentary confidential conversation, so all you have to do is say to yourself “Enough” and contact me HERE,

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Finally, if you would like to understand more about my journey from 28 years of alcoholism, to peaceful freedom, take a look at my internationally acclaimed book,This Isn’t Me (click on the link HERE).I wrote it for my son, as an apology for his younger years, and as an attempt to explain the un-explainable.