Hello lovely, I hope you safe and well, and happy in your life…..I hope that you are not struggling, exhausted and overwhelmed by the pressures of the high speed, have-to-have, have-to-be life that swirls around you.
And if you are struggling, feeling trapped and running on an emotionally empty tank, please know that I know you, I see you, and that my heart is with you, because I was you too, before I walked the path back to ME.
When I was you, I was drunk, with an eating disorder, issues with self harm, no self-awareness, no self-esteem, no self-respect, no self-love, no knowing or accepting of who I was, isolated and disconnected from my soul.
That is so painful to write, and yet the words of truth just flow out……
My prayer for you is, that even if you recognise my words, you didn’t walk my addiction path, and even if you didn’t take the actions I did (alcohol was my biggest non-comfort), if you are reading this, if my words resonate, you probably have been tripped and trapped by the hidden roots of what you believe to be true of you.
My truth is that after 28 years of soul destroying, exhausting disconnect between my inner self-loathing, and outer self-confidence….a disconnect I tried to ‘comfort’ with alcohol, my drinking suddenly changed.
A ‘miracle’ I thought would never happen….a miracle that I have learned to know had nothing to do alcohol, or with anything other than a simple shift in awareness about ME, and my world changed completely.
Everything didn’t fall into place in a single instant, and not in one day, or month or year, but never again did I feel the sense of fear or loneliness that I thought was me, because on the day of that first shift, I started a life transforming, exciting, empowering journey back to my safe place, my trust, my love, my home….back to ME.
A ME I had never met before, had never seen, voiced or listened too….A ME that I accept 100%, for my gifts of Love, Kindness, Compassion, Forgiveness, and for my flaws….whenever they pop up……
The ME I talk about is YOU too🧡
The ONLY reason you are not where you want to be, who you want to be, and who you want to be with in life, is because of what you have forgotten about who you are, what you have to learnt to believe is not good enough about who you are, what you have learnt to believe your not capable of, and what you have learnt to believe you do not deserve in life.
These are the twisted roots of your overwhelm, exhaustion, stress, anxieties, fears, feelings of isolation and loss.
Please listen to me my love, these roots are not YOU, they are not real…..instead the reality is that they were created by YOU, at a time of your innocence of any truths about YOU, the wonderful woman you came into this world to be.
The woman who is always and forever good enough, who is strong enough, brave, resilient, successful, fulfilled, deserving of love and money….these are your TRUTH.
Not the painful roots that have grown stronger the more you have fed them with your thoughts and feelings about YOU.
Darling, in your lack of knowing, accepting and loving who you are in your heart and soul, YOU have made these roots ‘real’ and the magic of you is that YOU and you can free yourself from every single painful thought and feeling about who you are in love and peace and step back into your TRUTH.
This is the journey I took, and this is the one I am so excited to be bringing to you….a joyful journey of wisdom, magic, and TRUTH that is The Route Back to YOU …..it is the path back to a life of easy flow, trusting your intuition, connecting with your soul, finding your freedom, you joy, your peace, and in that place, all your dreams are within your reach, and all you history of fear and pain is lovingly released.
To get you moving I have created a community of incredible women who know that they cannot, will not continue to be less than who they truly are in my new Facebook Group, The Route Back to You. It’s a new group, and its small, and don’t let that put you off, because it will be huge, packed with advice, tips, and the love and laughter that is the gift of the personal growth and acceptance of YOU.
Here’s the link to request joining The Route Back to YOU. I am so excited to see you there and watch you relearn how to soar…….
Be kind and gentle with yourself
Sonia x
PS. If you would like to understand more about my journey from 28 years of alcoholism, to peaceful freedom, take a look at my internationally acclaimed book, This Isn’t Me (click on the link HERE), reviewed by Ranvir Singh of Good Morning Britain as “Beautiful & devastating”, wrote it for my son, as an apology for his younger years, and as an attempt to explain the un-explainable.
